Death by peanut butter

I will mug hard from now on. I will definitely mug hard from now on. I didnt get full marks for math (and the marks I got are below expectations), I got careless in English and missed the full marks too, and careless in Geography and missed full marks again. And I failed jap... again. However, I decide not to quit! :DDD Once circle line is done maybe JUST MAYBE I will consider transferring back to Bishan thursday class:DDD

Reason 1 why I should mug hard: I got sick of facebook.

Reason 2 why I should mug hard: I cannot stand not getting full marks for Math and Geography, and I will aim to get a full marks for Physics:D

Reason 3 why I should mug hard: Not fail jap again.

Reason 4 why I should mug hard: I want RA Math and Physics

Reason 5 why I should mug hard: I want a GPA 3.8

Reason why I WILL mug hard: SUSHIS xDDDDDDD

Mr Goh resigned, so I'm not sure who I should get to write me the teacher's reccomendation for Physics RA. (I'm still pretty scared that I won't do well for PT).

CLE was on sexuality education. Zhanglaoshi call it sexy sexy talk (er). Ms Tay was telling us about male and female -ness and how we should behave like a lady and I got angry at that. Why must females behave in that certain lady-like way and males behave in that certain gentleman-like way or whatever else. Why can't females behave like males and males behave like females? It's so unfair! Like my Grandma tell me all the time that I shouldn't be reading sci-fi or crime-fic or psychological-related books or thrillers because usually its the boys who read them. That I should start watching more TV shows about people's life (or romance) such as the taiwan long soap drama my sister loves so much, and not those thrillers or action films like x-men or transformers or blood gore stuffs.

I don't get it. Why is it that in society females are expected to behave and think in someway and males in a much more different way? Females are sometimes still prejudiced against. What is it about females that is inferior to males? We are all born a human right? If you go deep down the only difference between a male and female is that y or x (correct me if I'm wrong) chromosome thing in our DNA. And a few biological differences. So why is it that a female is expected to be able to marry a good man, raise a kid or two, manage the household and at the same time succeed in her career before others consider her a successful lady, yet a male only need to be successful at his career. Can't it be the other way round? The husband stay at home and take care of children while her wife work and support the family. And females are supposed to sit in a certain way (eg: legs together in this 淑女 way) and the males can just sit anyway they like.

The maleness and femaleness thing is so stupid! We are all born human, gender is just a exterior thing.

Because I am a woman, I must make unusual efforts to succeed. If I fail, no one will say, "She doesn't have what it takes." They will say, "Women don't have what it takes." ~Clare Boothe Luce

I could have argued more, but Ms Tay cut my argument short and proceed on to talk about BGR, blahblahblah. Not interested in that. Rather amused by Ariel's ability to link her nuclear weapons/atomic bombs/chinese PSLE weightage to the whole talk.

Due to my outburst in class now everybody knows I am a feminist, or at least I support the movement. (except that I think females are superior over males).... (which is true because males, without the stupid old little brother there, are not males, while females are always females!)... (other forms of sexuality such as transexuals and bisexuals are weird)... (yet Fishy is a bi).

Dinner.

I think I am addicted to the thought of touching the keyboard and looking at the computer screen for hours, not the computer, so maybe there is still hope of quitting the addiction and starting mugging.

[Zhixin! Grace! Annie! whoever read this please tell me what is happening to Literature AA.]
[when and where are we meeting up?]

I want to hug a big big plushie and hide under my blanket and dream about swimming in a sea of chocolate and green tea ice-cream and sweet and eat sushis and spaghettis and pizza all day long. No big big plushie :'(  nightmares all day (of crappy stuffs).

I use to have this big big plushie in China (or it seems big to me since I was so small then).

Now I don't know where it is.

I'm losing things (like my ruler and this eraser and the plastic bag I put my PE shirt in after I change out and bigger things). I'm losing what I used to be (seriously quitting Jap has never crossed my mind till yesterday night). I don't want to lose my sanity.

I shall hug that monkey Carol gave me. Carol is the only one who gave me a plushie so touched.... (Fishy also very nice, treated me to food :D )

I really need to start being hardworking

Ah you see for about three weeks already, I keep telling myself: Study jap study jap, do revision do revision, finish all overdue homework, etc, yet I never do them. At this rate I will never get my RAs or pass jap!

Okay that is what I am supposed to finish by today.

That is what I actually done.

And I still have some homework to do, and stuffs to study. Ah... I like studying la, but the thing is computers are more fun! And then there's another thing about me getting tired so easily (I guessed it was lack of sleep, but I want to wake up earlier to watch Doraemon in the morning!) so I overdose on coffee (I drank two of those 3-in-1 Nestle coffee pack) even though I hate that aweful taste. Just want to keep awake. You see the last time (and the first time) I drank coffee was that horrible oral Wednesday and I was especially tired.

I thought coffee was supposed to keep people away, but those cheap coffee powder packs make me brain dead for one whole hour, and I was even more tired than before. So this is the last time I'm ever drinking again.

It seems that I was the only person in class who finished the Physics PT by Monday. Mr Goh said I just need to make some adjustments to the way I present the results and I can get high marks because all my other points stated in the discussions are relevant. And the best thing is I am allowed to exceed word limit (not too much though) because word limits are not very important :D

I decided to take Math and Physics RA next year. If I could get into them. I shall resolve to mug hard for them (and borrow math olympiad notes). I shall also mug jap (even though it means memorising stuffs).

Feeling very overwhelmed now, due to crappy Literature AA and crappy Jap Show&Tell and other more crappy stuffs like my sensei confiscating my storybook (I took it back from his desk afterwards during break, but he didnt give permission; ah I took it when he is not around, he didnt notice either). I hate my sensei even more now. I want the DBSK fangirling sensei back! Even though she makes me finish all the homework, at least she don't care if I pay attention during lessons. I will bring rotten stuffs next week for him to confisticate! Muahaha his desk will be full of rotten stuffs that smells and decay.

I still havn't settle my grouping for Literature AA, havn't decide what movie to do on, because I don't watch most of those in the list, but maybe I can do Percy Jackson (OH GREEK MYTHS). Titanic is out! I wonder why I can't do on X-men. X-men Origins: Wolverine is a nice movie to write a ballad about, since it is a tragedic story! Wolverine killed his dad, fall out with his brother, his lover got killed and he lost his memory. And he has the destructable metal inserted into his body and the metal covered his bones. And due to his mutation, he could heal from practically everything, which means he probably live for a really long time already. At the end of the movie, he lost his memory, and he live on for fifteen years, wandering about trying to remember who he is, until Professor Xavier found him. And stupid Stryker who caused Wolverine to be in this state didnt died until the second movie. ISN'T THAT TRAGIC??? WHY OH WHY ISN'T X-MEN IN THE LIST???!!!

I will started and finish all homework tomorrow! (i think)

Grades and Values

I cannot remember the exact question (my memory is failing me) but basically we have to write about how we think the school can provide a high grades and high values education to us.

I do remember not every one goes to school, in poorer, less-developed countries, it is their parents who holds the sole responsibility of teaching their kids everything they need to know in life. And similarly, I don't see why in urban countries, parents push all responsibilities of educating their children to the school and its teachers.

Who gave birth to us? The school? Then alright we will disown the parents. But no our parents gave birth to us. If they made the decision to give life to us, then they jolly well shoulder all responsibilities of raising us up, which includes teaching us everything we need to know in life. Parents, by right, should be the ones instilling values in us, imparting academic knowledge to us, assisting us in our life's journey. However, the stressful world we are living in left our parents with less time and energy to pass on academic knowledge to us, beside, they are usually not skilled in all the different areas, which is where the school comes in. The school hires professionals, those who are better in the different areas of academic studies, called the teachers, to aid our parents in giving us an holistic education. They will take charge of our studies, our parents just need to instill the right values and morals in us, and discipline us well.

This is what many parents failed to do so. They are shirking responsibility, pushing everything to the teachers and school, asic stuffs like home economics (cooking, etc) and even more basic stuffs like moral education. The school is nice enough to use one period every week to teach and educate the students on moral and values, and us students take it for granted. The school is nice enough to provide resources and opportunities for the students to give back to society, and parents complaint about how stressful it is for the students.

Once again, school's fault.

Dear demanding parents, why don't you just think about it for once, why did you give birth to your child. You could have use birth control measures you know, or just not indulge in natural pleasures, but since you want to, you have to bear all responsibilities. You are supposed to be in charge of all aspects of your child, yet the school offers to help, and now you decide, yeah, you can push everything to them. Don't you think it is easy for the school to raise 2000 over kids/teenagers, when you are already complaining about how tiring it is to raise one? Think about it.

Students are responsible for their own attitudes and actions. They are going to be adult one day. If you are shirking all responsibilities to the school, blaming it for everything, do you think your kids, when they become adults, will know how to shoulder responsibilities?

You, parents, are supposed to raise us, and now everyone is pushing all the work to the school.

Now another point. The recent article Sandra Leong wrote is saying that if the elites were snobbish and proud, it would be the school's fault.

Again, the school's fault.

So where's the role parents play in our education? Writing complain letters to the MOE? What are they teaching the students? That school is responsible for their whole life? That we are not to respect the teachers? That if anything goes wrong it would be the school's fault?

Back to the elites point. Just because we are blessed with a good mind and government are paying to provide us with a high education doesn't mean we don't know humility and looks down on others we thought to be inferior to us. Education and degrees doesn't mean anything. They don't represents our character. Having a better education doesn't mean we are snobs or proud people. It just mean we will grow up and give back more to the society.

Instead of saying we look down on you because you are from a neighbourhood school, why not ask yourself, why do you steorotype against us because we are from an elite school.

Why is speaking perfect english a bad thing? Don't government promotes speaking good english? Besides, that is the standard, correct form of english, and 'singlish' is a mixed of different languages unintelligible to others who don't know the Singapore culture.

We may be elites, but we are not elitist. We don't look down on others inferior to us in education and minds, but we will definitely look down on those inferior to us in characters and morals.

What's wrong with going to a elite school? Humans different, but all fairly created. Some may be better in academics, but other may be better in arts or music. Even a retard like Charlie Gordon has an innocent and pure mind, something we all wish for, yet couldn't get. It's just that the world we are living in now, the society we are working in now stressed on our academic results. So the government have to pick out those better in that area, and train them so that they can reach their full potential. Is that wrong? If given a chance for you to reach your full potential in areas you are talented in, who won't jump for it?

You may give up on your studies because you don't like it, you don't want it, but we like it, we want it, and we want the best ones. It's human nature to want and desire the best.